If you have suffered through the loss of an animal companion, you know how deafening the silence is when they are gone. The house is painfully quiet and everything feels disjointed. Your normal routine is no longer about their care, medications, or comfort.
The silence is deafening.
When we lost Charlotte, our oldest kitty resident on Painted Rain Ranch after almost nineteen years every moment of silence was a painful reminder she was gone. She was the most vocal kitty we have ever known.
It never gets easier even with the work I do. My heart still breaks into a million pieces and that crushing feeling overcomes me. As the hours go by, I find myself in disbelief on some level as she has been a part of my life for so long, yet I find peace in the memories we made together. I know she will always be by my side.
There is nowhere else she would rather be.
Very little can ease the pain.
I have walked that path many times and felt the heaviness of grief with each step.
I know that this is a familiar journey for you too.
One step at a time.
One breath at a time.
I wrote this poem expressing my pain:
“It happened again today.
You thought about me,
and sadness filled your heart.
I want you to know that I love you more than anything.
You are my shining light.
My happiness.
My everything.
I’m here now to soften the shattered pieces of your broken heart
and to nudge you gently along the road toward healing.
Trust I am always by your side as there is nowhere else I would rather be.”
By Karen A Anderson @ All Rights Reserved
No matter how long we have our angels, a month, a year, or twenty years, it hurts deeply when that final day arrives.
I hope that you stay open to sensing your beloved companion near you no matter how long it has been since they left this Earth.
There is nowhere else they would rather be than with you.
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I never knew how much space my 10-pound cat, Henry, took in my life until he died. There is a huge void. His energy, his personality, his presence filled a room. I miss him so much. I find myself missing his quirky meows and chirps so much. There is so much painful silence now. I know he is with me, thanks to you. His soul lives on and someday we will be together again.
I am so sorry for your loss. It is utterly devastating. Henry must be a very special boy. I’m so glad you found me and hope my books can ease the pain.
Karen, I can’t believe I found this today. I woke up to utter silence after my dog, Dippy died suddenly. I have never cried so much in my life. It is so painful. Every moment hurts. She was always at my feet, very chatty, and never took her eyes off me. Through desperation, I found you and this post. I know this silence will lessen but right now it is overwhelming. I’m ordering your books as I had not heard of them before. Bless you for helping us.
I am so sorry for your loss. They are such a huge part of our lives. That stillness when they are gone hurts deeply. Dippy is still by your side and always will be. Thank you for ordering my books and for your kindness. I am so grateful
The silence and the empty bed are so painful. I keep looking for my cat, Bella. She was with me for 19 years. I had never thought of the day when I would wake up and it would be so silent and she would be gone. My heart is shattered. I have found comfort with your books and your videos. Please know how much you are helping me and I’m sure so many who are in the depths of grief.
I am so sorry for your loss. It is very painful to glance over to the spot they usually sleep in and there is nothing there. I’m so glad my books and podcasts are helping you on your journey. I appreciate your kindness so much